Dear Children, I’m Sorry I Don’t Show My Love More

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I’ve reached the point in parenthood where I get up before my kiddos just to have some good ol’ peace and calming in the house. Can I get a hallelujah and an amen?

I often eat dinner behind the kitchen island so my two year old doesn’t eye me and ask to eat my dinner instead, because I totally took the last bit of guacamole and I’m not having someone dig their fingers into with a half eaten, soggy chips. Sorry but that’s not happening. I’m not a garbage bag.

So motherhood has me getting up a whole lot earlier and staying up a whole later. To say I’m always exhausted is completely an understatement.

Motherhood has me staying up a whole lot later than I used to.

Motherhood also has me stepping in pee puddles and getting poo on my finger trips (it happens, y’all) from taking a certain two year to the potty a second too late.

 

You see, motherhood is a ride of many, many emotions.

Somedays I feel like I’m riding on the “let’s make it last forever” train. Other days I hate to admit but it’s true: I can barely make it past 10am without tears of frustration and thoughts that I seriously can’t make this happen anymore.

So why is motherhood so dang hard? Why do we get beat by tiny little humans?

Because they are freaking tyrants at times.

Mamas, I’m not kidding you. If you’re a mama you know exactly what I’m talking about. But can I be super real with you for a second?

I hate myself more for being angry, upset, frustrated, and every single feeling in between. I hate that I go bananas over simple, silly things. Honestly, it’s the hardest thing in the world for me to discipline my child, but I know it’s the best thing for him.

Why is Motherhood SO Hard?

  • We love our babies.

Truth. That’s all I have to say.

I cry because I love my child so much. But I know that if I don’t cut off his faults now, I will raise an uncontrollable child.

  • We hate to bring pain to what we bore.

Can I get an amen? Nuff said, right? We know discipline is right and necessary but it’s not always easy for our mommy hearts.

  • Consistency is exhausting.

Say what? Yes. In order to be stay on top of your motherhood game, you need to be consistent. And this in and of itself is exhausting! But the only way to ride the ugly little habits and the naughty behaviors is with consistency and staying on top of your game.

It’s hard. I know. There are many times when I just want to ignore whatever naughty thing my two year old is doing and sit and stare at my phone and do nothing about it. But then I remember that he’s two. He’s testing me. He wants my attention and he knows how to get it.

Ugly Truth

  • Motherhood is a ride of emotions. There are good days, bad days, sweet days, exhausting days, fun days, and yucky days.

But you know what? You’re doing this life with your little people and they think you’re the best hero ever. So even when you think and feel like nothing is going right, remember you have tiny humans who think the world of you.

And their world would be absolutely incomplete without you in it.

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